I haven't had anxiety this bad in a long time. I used to get bad anxiety in my teens and would crawl in to bed with my mom while she helped me through it. I don't have here anymore and no one else understands what I am going through. My son is sleeping peacefully in his room and my husband is asleep in our bed. I keep feeling like I can't breathe and want to go to the hospital. I have been waking up out of breath lately and fear that I have sleep apnea as it's getting worse and worse. Part of me says go to the hospital, but the other part says no. I don't want to die!!!! Why am I going through all of this hell??? I am a mother and a wife... I want to be just that... not a young woman going through all of this. It isn't fair to my husband and son, it just isn't fair!
I've had to take kolonopin, which I hate taking, and it's making me tired, but not helping with the not getting a breath bit. If this doesn't go away by 1:00 am I think I am going to go to the hospital. Usually my anxiety is the mind racing bit, not the I can't breathe bit, so I am pretty scared.
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