So frustrated

So tomorrow is my procedure and I have had a lot of faith that I am going to find my answer with getting this TEE done. Katy even called me this afternoon for a bit of reassurance. Everything was fine with the confidence level that they would find something... until I talked to my father. He believes they are going to find NOTHING wrong with me. So this means my dear ol' dad doesn't think anything is wrong with me. I guess I have daily migraines and see stupid annoying flashy funky crap in my eyes and that there is nothing wrong with me. Well that does it.... I am just crazy I guess. Ship me off to the looney bin.

Dear Dad,

For the past 8 months I have been complaining about strange symptoms going on with my vision. I even mentioned daily headaches. I told you how frustrating it was that I had to go through this while trying to raise your new grandson. Do you remember when I told you I found more people like me with these symptoms and the one thing we had in common was a hole in the heart. Yup I remember, you told me the dr. said it was closed and I remember my first thought was, "what did that dr. know". I also told you how I found the ONE person in this world who had my exact same symptoms to the "T", had a hole in her heart as well and got the hole closed and she is now SYMPTOM FREE!!!! These are coincidences??? I think not!! This is factual evidence in my book and I haven't prayed every night for an answer which led me to finding Katy and actually having hope to just drop it because you said the Dr.s are going to find NOTHING. No! Tomorrow they will find something. I will not bask in the glory of telling you "You were wrong", I won't even say that to you. I just hope at that moment you will know and then be my dad. A dad who trusts in his daughter that something is wrong.

Any ways.... Good luck to me tomorrow.