Update

So I went to the Cardiologist yesterday. It was a horrible experience getting there I can tell you that. My car wouldn't start at all, but a friend at work let me borrow hers and I got there on time. An hour later I have an appointment to get a TEE done next Wednesday. Now I asked the dr. if he was going to do a bubble study as well.... he reassured me that the Bubble study would be the next step if he found a hole first. I am trusting him with his decision as I know Katy got her bubble study done the first time around....

So here is what this TEE entails. I have to get there 30 minutes to an hour earlier... I don't know why!!! They are going to put an IV in me with medicine to help me relax.. and then put a camera down my throat. I AM SCARED CRAPLESS!!!!!! I am shaking inside thinking about them injecting me with drugs. I can't stand the stuff. BUT, I need an answer to this nightmare I am living and I would take 3 TEE's over this hell I am going through any day. I want my life back!

So, anyways.... visual crap is still 24-7, migraines are still pretty much 24-7. I am at work now.... I don't feel much of a headache, but I know it's there. Yesterdays was so bad and so that means of course I am so exhausted today. I woke up early for a blood test this morning. I can't wait to go home and go to sleep.

So let's see.... In 2 months it will have officially been 1 year that I have been dealing with the visual migraine aura's. 1 stinking year of hell that I could of been enjoying and celebrating the life of my son.... instead it's been a struggling keeping him priority #1 all while I constantly think about this crap. I have however been learning to ignore it for the most part. I REFUSE though, to live like this. I will find that answer. I will beat this!! And then I WILL find others who were in my same shoes, and I will help them to get back in to their old shoes. :) I promise!!!

I am excited.... this weekend My hubby and I are taking Kaiden to the annual pumpkin festival. Woo hoo, I am such a nerd. I love this time of year. I wish I were migraine free so I could enjoy it even more!!!! There is something about Fall.... even though I live in Florida and nothing changes but the temperature.... I can tell a difference with the smell. It smells fresh to me. The fall breeze brings new air..... maybe I am wrong... I dunno, but I LOVE IT!!!!!