I thought I would make this a post about multiple topics as they are all related.
Firstly I am starting to accept what may have happened to me. My vision and mental issues did start after I had stopped taking Prozac. Is that a coincidence? I am not sure. I have found plenty of people with thyroid disorder, like myself, who have the same issue. Some who have never taken an antidepressant before. So the term is called persistent perception disorder. For those who got it taking a hallucinogenic type drug, you would add that term in front of the other words. I however was taking Prozac so it gets a shorter name. Weird huh? So from what one Dr.'s theorizes is that some people have a weaker genetic type and when you take drugs, prescribed, or not... it can lead to this PPD. Is there a cure? No. There are treatments... which I will not partake in as it has to do with taking more drugs that basically calm you down and I that is another story in itself. As of now there are a few doctors studying this condition. There are probably thousands of people who have some form of this disorder, but because there aren't many Dr.'s who know about it, or understand it these people can do nothing about it, but live with it... like myself. So prayer is all I have at this time.....
So I finally went and seen a headache Dr., a better one than last time. She diagnosed me with vestibular migraine. She didn't prescribe an anti epileptic, nor an antidepressant, tricylic etc... nope, just Verapamil. A calcium channel blocker. Of course I came home and googled the crap out of that medicine, and of course I scared the crap out of myself. After 1 failed attempt to take it, 1 call in to the hospital, and one call in to the Dr., I finally took it religiously and what do you know.... No more daily headache and I haven't had a migraine in 2 weeks. I am however, now getting heart palpitations even though I am opening the pills up and pouring out some. I am taking a very low dose so I don't understand why I am getting the palps. I am going to put a call in to the Dr. on Monday. Maybe she will switch me to tabs.
Well that's it I guess. I really wanted to come on and complain, but writing something informative for anyone who reads this is much more rewarding than me coming back on in 3 months to read an angry post. I guess I will just say, I wish there was more awareness of what SSRI's can do to the brain. Specifically the visual cortex, which is considered another brain itself, but very sensitive. A lot of people complain of light sensitivity on antidepressants, and this is why. It's also working on your 2nd brain. Had I known, or maybe had my parents known the side effects of putting a 15 year old girl on Prozac would have been, I'd like to think they would of nixed it. But the fact that my mom had been taking them for years.... luck certainly wasn't on my side. Maybe I was destined for this? So I ask God "Why me?"..... then that small still voice tells me that I chose this myself. Strange... very strange. My hope is that this will eventually wear off. That somehow my brain will correct itself as it is always trying to do, but the likeliness of that happening... probably slim. It would be great if some kind of a Dr. had a way to tell if my brain was permanently damaged, or if it's a matter or some wires being crossed. I guess we can send men to the moon, but have yet to master the brain? Strange!
